My Parents got in at 3 am. I was so excited to see them! We sat up awhile and talked and then we all went to bed. I got about 2 hours of sleep that night. The next morning my contractions were not coming close enough together so my Midwife suggested Pitocin. I agreed since she thought it was best. Since part of my birth plan was no IV unless necessary, I had to first get the IV in and then they started the Pitocin around noon. It did not take long for the contractions to start becoming more intense. Since I now had an IV pole walking the halls was out, I didn't want to drag that thing with me. So I bounced on the ball until that became too uncomfortable and then I sat in the jacuzzi tub in the bathroom.
I remember the nurses telling me that I was smiling to much for being in labor. I took it as a good thing. My contractions started getting two minutes apart, one minute apart and more and more intense. They started lasting for about 45 seconds to one minute with only about 5 seconds down time in between. These were HARD CORE. This was the most intense pain I have ever felt in my life. This went on for some time. I wasn't to interested in watching the clock so I am not quite sure how long it went on, But I will say dinner had come and gone, and the moon was starting to come out. I progressed enough that they said I could be in the birthing tub, so I switched tubs and begged them to stop the Pitocin. I was getting so exhausted from the contractions because there was no downtime between them to even catch my breath. That was one of the hardest things to endure and I had reached my limit. At this point I still had not taken any drugs! (Yay me!) That was also part of my birth plan. No drugs unless I begged for them,
Like really begged for them.
I finally got to 8cm and felt like I had to push. My Midwife said I could and so I pushed...and pushed and pushed. The more I pushed the more dizzy I got and eventually needed some oxygen because every time after I pushed my head would just spin around and around. On top of that I was getting overheated in the tub. I had to get out of the tub and onto the bed.
Now I have reached my limit. I was exhausted......beyond exhausted.
I was done.
I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted this to all be over. I hurt beyond belief, since they stopped the pitocin my contractions were coming every minute. I couldn't lay down. Laying down was the worst thing. I had to be up, I had to move. But I didn't want to be up and moving I wanted to sleep. I physically couldn't push anymore. I cried as I begged my mom to make it stop.
Up till this moment taking medicine to help the pain never crossed my mind, not once. But all of a sudden a light went off saying remember there is medicine!!! I asked/begged/cried for some IV pain medicine.
I was told no.
Why?
I don't remember why they said no, all I remember was being told I couldn't have any. My nurse Nan, wonderful Nan, told me that I could have an epidural. Without hesitation I agreed. Having an epidural was a no go on my birth plan, but that was before all of this started. They told me I had to wait while they called the on call anesthesiologist, they told me he lived in town and it shouldn't be too long, IF he was at home. I found the only comfortable place to be, Sitting on the toilet gripping the metal railings on the wall next to it. I remember hardly being able to keep my eyes open I was so tired. I tried to rest but my contractions wouldn't let me do that. It felt like I closed my eyes and all of a sudden the anesthesiologist appeared, that was one of the best moments of the day!
Sitting still for the epidural was extremely hard. Laying down during a contraction was the worst thing ever and sitting during a contraction was the second worse thing ever. It took him two tries to get it but once it was in I started to feel relief within a few minutes. Now that it was getting close to midnight we all needed a break. Me, my midwife, my parents and my husband. My midwife said I could sleep for a few hours to regain my strength so I could push. I fell asleep instantly.
I felt like I slept for days, But really it was only 2 hours.
I was glad that I pushed some before I had the epidural because I would have been at a loss. I had no feeling whatsoever, I just had to remember how my muscle felt when I was pushing the correct way.
Again I pushed and pushed and pushed.
5 hours of pushing.
I was starting to get exhausted again, and a bit frustrated.
The baby's head wasn't getting past my pubic bone. I was pushing as hard as I could but I wasn't making any progress. I turned every which way my midwife wanted me to, nothing was helping. My Midwife said that she was going to have to call another doctor in to apply suction to help the baby out.
I agreed, anything to get this baby out. The new doctor came in and applied the suction.
The suction pulled off a few times and they had to re attach it, but 6 more pushes later,
Arianna Kristine Erickson was born.
She weighed 7lbs 3oz and was born at 5:11 am on January 17th 2013.
I remember seeing these little round eyes and these giant chubby cheeks. She just looked at me. She didn't cry she just looked. It felt so amazing to hold her. She was so perfect and wonderful. I was glad it was over. 42 hours of labor and with seven hours of pushing and she was worth it.
I snuggled her close and kissed her head.
I was so amazed by her.
I fell in love instantly.
She was exactly what I had hoped for.
I remember the nurses telling me that I was smiling to much for being in labor. I took it as a good thing. My contractions started getting two minutes apart, one minute apart and more and more intense. They started lasting for about 45 seconds to one minute with only about 5 seconds down time in between. These were HARD CORE. This was the most intense pain I have ever felt in my life. This went on for some time. I wasn't to interested in watching the clock so I am not quite sure how long it went on, But I will say dinner had come and gone, and the moon was starting to come out. I progressed enough that they said I could be in the birthing tub, so I switched tubs and begged them to stop the Pitocin. I was getting so exhausted from the contractions because there was no downtime between them to even catch my breath. That was one of the hardest things to endure and I had reached my limit. At this point I still had not taken any drugs! (Yay me!) That was also part of my birth plan. No drugs unless I begged for them,
Like really begged for them.
I finally got to 8cm and felt like I had to push. My Midwife said I could and so I pushed...and pushed and pushed. The more I pushed the more dizzy I got and eventually needed some oxygen because every time after I pushed my head would just spin around and around. On top of that I was getting overheated in the tub. I had to get out of the tub and onto the bed.
Now I have reached my limit. I was exhausted......beyond exhausted.
I was done.
I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted this to all be over. I hurt beyond belief, since they stopped the pitocin my contractions were coming every minute. I couldn't lay down. Laying down was the worst thing. I had to be up, I had to move. But I didn't want to be up and moving I wanted to sleep. I physically couldn't push anymore. I cried as I begged my mom to make it stop.
Up till this moment taking medicine to help the pain never crossed my mind, not once. But all of a sudden a light went off saying remember there is medicine!!! I asked/begged/cried for some IV pain medicine.
I was told no.
Why?
I don't remember why they said no, all I remember was being told I couldn't have any. My nurse Nan, wonderful Nan, told me that I could have an epidural. Without hesitation I agreed. Having an epidural was a no go on my birth plan, but that was before all of this started. They told me I had to wait while they called the on call anesthesiologist, they told me he lived in town and it shouldn't be too long, IF he was at home. I found the only comfortable place to be, Sitting on the toilet gripping the metal railings on the wall next to it. I remember hardly being able to keep my eyes open I was so tired. I tried to rest but my contractions wouldn't let me do that. It felt like I closed my eyes and all of a sudden the anesthesiologist appeared, that was one of the best moments of the day!
Sitting still for the epidural was extremely hard. Laying down during a contraction was the worst thing ever and sitting during a contraction was the second worse thing ever. It took him two tries to get it but once it was in I started to feel relief within a few minutes. Now that it was getting close to midnight we all needed a break. Me, my midwife, my parents and my husband. My midwife said I could sleep for a few hours to regain my strength so I could push. I fell asleep instantly.
I felt like I slept for days, But really it was only 2 hours.
I was glad that I pushed some before I had the epidural because I would have been at a loss. I had no feeling whatsoever, I just had to remember how my muscle felt when I was pushing the correct way.
Again I pushed and pushed and pushed.
5 hours of pushing.
I was starting to get exhausted again, and a bit frustrated.
The baby's head wasn't getting past my pubic bone. I was pushing as hard as I could but I wasn't making any progress. I turned every which way my midwife wanted me to, nothing was helping. My Midwife said that she was going to have to call another doctor in to apply suction to help the baby out.
I agreed, anything to get this baby out. The new doctor came in and applied the suction.
The suction pulled off a few times and they had to re attach it, but 6 more pushes later,
Arianna Kristine Erickson was born.
She weighed 7lbs 3oz and was born at 5:11 am on January 17th 2013.
I remember seeing these little round eyes and these giant chubby cheeks. She just looked at me. She didn't cry she just looked. It felt so amazing to hold her. She was so perfect and wonderful. I was glad it was over. 42 hours of labor and with seven hours of pushing and she was worth it.
I snuggled her close and kissed her head.
I was so amazed by her.
I fell in love instantly.
She was exactly what I had hoped for.
I must say I could not have gotten through this without my husband. He was the one thing that helped me through all of my contractions. I love him very much and even more so after going through this with him.












